the useful pain.

it was summer super hot Wednesday noon,
i was studying Heart sound for my examination the day after.
stuck with the high up tensions.

being so stressful because the subject is too hard to be understood and memorizing them all without understanding is suicidal.
loosing my focus, even the simplest explanation was hard for me at that time.
and i got so many other cardio-thingy that need to be read.

books stacked in front of me, but i can only see home.
yes, home.
thousands miles away.

so i decided to call home.
called Umi, no answer.
called Abah, no answer.
called le sister, same. no answer.

not giving up. continued dialing.
multiple ringing and finally it was Abah who answered me.

"hello assalamualaikum sha."
elicited by his voice, the warm tears rolled down my face. fast.
cant hold.

"abah..." and the cries got louder.

same thing happened when Abah passed the phone to Umi.
her voice worsen the tears. errk.

*****

put your hand on the heart and whisper "ya qalb, la khauf wa la tahzan, innnallaha maana." - Abah

trust yourself. not every hard  subject is difficult to be answered. sometimes, the one you dislike will help you more in exams. they even contribute more marks for you. - Umi

*****

the exam went very smooth, and turned out to be so easy Alhamdulillah.
again, Alhamdulillah. ;)

Parents. how merciful is Allah to give you such a great parents.
comforting, reassuring
and all in between.

رَبِّ أَوْزِعْنِي أَنْ أَشْكُرَ نِعْمَتَكَ الَّتِي أَنْعَمْتَ عَلَيَّ وَعَلَى وَالِدَيَّ وَأَنْ أَعْمَلَ صَالِحاً تَرْضَاهُ وَأَدْخِلْنِي بِرَحْمَتِكَ فِي عِبَادِكَ الصَّالِحِينَ

  Wahai Tuhanku, ilhamkanlah daku supaya tetap bersyukur akan nikmatMu yang Engkau kurniakan kepadaku dan kepada ibu bapaku, dan supaya aku tetap mengerjakan amal soleh yang Engkau redai; dan masukkanlah daku - dengan limpah rahmatMu - dalam kumpulan hamba-hambaMu yang soleh".